Um..... ok.
This post, like most of my posts come from reflecting on my days with my son. Hubby is working his tail off with Greenworks Total Lawn Care (and loving it by the way.) E and I are home, exploring bugs and baking and whatever else we come across on our sometimes very slow days.
So E and I are on the porch. It is finally sunny and warm after more than a week of rain. He's sitting on my legs while I lay in the sun on my front porch. Literally laying in the sun for all to see. Stretched out like a cat that just ate a whole bowl of ice cream (it was a taco salad) soaking up the heat like there was no tomorrow. E is making shadow puppets with his hands of dragons and birds and taking pictures of the poor UPS Man with my phone and it was glorious.
And not just for the sun.
Today, in that moment, I was 100% absolutely content just being me. No expectations. No "someone might see me" anxieties. I had on old slippers, jeans that were too big, a stained banana yellow sweatshirt that was always too short in the sleeves, and hair that I let dry in braids two days ago. Eli had on fire truck pajamas and bed head and it was almost two in the afternoon. This was, by no means, a particularly glamorous ensemble.
There was absolutely nothing about how we looked or what we were doing that should have made me feel good about myself.
Except for the fact that I was happily and completely at peace with myself today.
When I have bad days, bad weeks, bad months, they always seem to happen when we have too much going on, and I forget that I need to take care of myself. I have a tendency to go go go and tell myself that I can recover later. That never works. I need to take care of myself every dang day. Just like a car, I can't run on empty. I don't just get to keep going on a promise that I'll stop and fill up tomorrow. Neither do you.
Today, I finished my first ever 24 hour assisted fast. (Assisted with Keto and Hydrate... think fasting, but supercharged) I broke that fast with a delicious healthy lunch. I read books to my son. I learned something new. I drank a cup of peppermint tea with my favorite CBD and showed up for myself in a big way today.
Let me leave you with this. I challenge you to show up for yourself for the next three days. Do something that is just for you every day and be in the moment. Have a cup of tea. Wash your face slowly. Take your multi vitamin. Stand in the sun for 5 minutes. It can be anything! Then, before you go to bed, ask yourself, what was your favorite part of the day. I bet you'll surprise yourself.
Be kind to yourself, my friends.
XO,
Megan
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